Actually Starting to Blog

Well, I guess the time has come. I said that I would start a blog of my own (and actually update it) at the first of the year. So, it’s a little early. I am finally out of school for this semester. I am out until January 12, 2009. Then, it gets hard. I have one year left, 3 semesters total, 560 more clinical hours (unpaid). I cannot wait to be finished. I cannot wait to not have school obligations. I cannot wait to spend more quality time with my family.

So, my plan is to update as sporadic (but frequent) as possible. We’ll see.

I am starting my new blog a little early. Consider it therapy.

***Psalm 5:3 "In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation."***

Go back with me to four years ago. Four years ago, Kate was about five weeks old (doing math in my head… who needs a calendar?). I was breastfeeding, so my breasts were HUGE. But, I had three small nodules in my right breast. Dr. Lyle assessed them and sent me to see a surgeon. The surgeon sent me for ultrasounds and last I heard from the office (4 years ago), it was nothing to worry about it, probably just a plugged duct that would not unplug itself. Now, fast forward to about 7 weeks ago. Breast self exam (no need to mentally picture me doing a breast self exam, there are plenty of others to watch online). Hmmm, another nodule in my right breast. Maybe it is the same one from four years ago, I just have not felt it in a while. Literature says to watch it through a few cycles and see what happens. Well, obviously a few cycles have not happened in 7 weeks, but I think it’s bigger. But more nervously, I have swollen axillary lymph nodes (they are actually swollen below my clavicle on the right, but these are considered axillary). So, today, my friend Caryn comes over (She’s a nurse). She feels the lymph nodes and the nodule (maybe I should say mass… that just sounds so bad… ). Not knowing who to go to (Do I go see my primary doctor or my GYN or a surgeon???), she recommended a surgeon she used to work for, Dr. Rader. My appointment is Tuesday. 9:15a.m. Please, PRAY.

I do not want to talk about it. At least I do not think I want to talk about it. At least not until after Tuesday. I think I would worry more and stress more if I had to talk about it. So, if I get stressed, I’ll go to God. Then, if I feel the need to share, I’ll share. I am so grateful to all of you I call friend and to all of you who call me friend. But, I think I need to focus on what God wants. I’ll update as soon as I know something on Tuesday about the breast thing. Until then, I’ll post about the happenings around here. Consider it therapy.